My past

When i was a child i was raped and was told that if i told anyone they would kill me. So i grew up fearing and not trusting anyone. Tell i told my dad what happened to me when we moved out. So then i was home schooled for 6 years and my mom taught my sister and I for those years and it was hard. I grew up having zero Friends and no one to talk to but my dad and mom but i need someone to talk to and hold as a friend. i cried ever night and hated my self for thinking that no one like my cuz i and a bad face or that i was to tall or stuff like that. At 7th grade i went to Grove academy and i went there for one day to see if i like it and if i wanted to go there. there i met Joe Koenig and he was my 1st frainds that i had and i wanted to go back the next day but i could not. but that next year i did that the year after that. i love everyone yes of course there is some kids that wornt my kind but i tried to be Friends even if their hit me in the balls ever time i did something she did not like or do something she ask and did not do cough cough Paige Napolitan. But i love her still but we all had a good time then after 9th grade my mom and dad said i could not go back that they did not have $ for it and were paying it off tell i turn 25 years old so i told everyone that i had to go and everyone was sad but i said that i still want to hang out with them. the next year i went to Orono high school and i stard with the bad guy and girls but after i found that out i hanged out with Garrett Pope and no he is not the pope lol. there i graduated there and still hang out with him sometime. in August of 2009 i thought my life was going down hill and then my friend showed me that God loves me and still loves me so i gave my life to him i am now in every mans battle for purity and that is a army tipe thing for man and teen guy and it has changed me for the good and now i love god even if i am going thought the hardest times and i still wont leave him. A few months ago i meat 2 girls that has changed my life for ever. Kelly and kierra Morrison i love them so much if i need anything or some one to talk to i go straight to them cuz i no that they wont judge me and help me. Kelly is the stoughtest prayer girl in the world i think and kierra is the nicest girl that you will meat now i talk to them and go to church with them. but in all this god love me and i love him and if he ever need someone to do anything i will be in the front lines