my dog is in so much pain and we r thinking about putting him down and my sister Anna shade is leveing in 5 day and God is just testing me if i can hanld it all and im trying to put up a fight but it is so had im crying and i cant stop.
this is the verse that is my faverit when i am down and so sad.

as the deer pants for streams of water,
so i long for you, O God.
I thirst for God, the living god.
When can I come and stand before him?
Day and night, i have only tears for food,
while my enemies continually tanut me, saying
"where is this God of yours?"
My heart is breaking
as I remember how it used to be:
I walked among the crowds of worshipers,
leading a great prosession to the house of God,
singing for joyand giving thanks-
it was the sound of a Great celebration!
Why am I discouraged?
Why so sad?
i will put my hope in God!
i will praise him again
my savior and my God!
Now I am deeply Discouaged,
but I will remember your kindness-
from Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan
from the land of Mount Mizar.
I hear the tumult of the raging seas
as your waves and surging tides sweep over me.
Through each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me,
and through each night I sing his songs,
praying to God who gives me life.
"O God my rock," I cry,
"Why have you forsaken me?
Why must I wander in darkness,
oppressed by my enemies?"
Their taunts pierce me like a fatal wound.
They scoff, "Where is this God of yours?"
Why am I discourage?
Why so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again--
my Savior and my God!

if life was so good y is there sin. Cuz of man, man had to do everything everything. when it is not or when it is they want to do it. there is not one thing that i would not do if someone told me not to. do u no why? Cuz God made us like that and he made the one thing to do is to go out there and do what ever we want if it costs usto brack a leg or arm we dont care we want to do it. but one thing that i think god did not want is that us to do that and go to far. when guys do some thing and we dont stop tell we get heart why is that i dont no why we want to do something that we. What i think it is that we want to show the all the guys we can do it beter and the longest. but why do u want to do that i wanted to jump in the pond with so much green poop lol but i said to my self what would that prove that would only show to kelly that i can and im not scard but she alreay new that.
i just want to go out there and not be in church and sit there ever sunday but i lever so much and i just want to go and spred the word and do the thing he wants me to not the crap that is in my life.

the felling

life is going so fast that it is so fun but music slows it down and u dont have to give a fuck about anyone else out there and if u have a problum with anyone u just play tell all the anger or what ever u r felling.